Until I get over you..

One night, I came across this particular song and I told myself that this is my story.  I am not ashamed to admit that I am still and will always be this in love with you.  I will never fall out of love maybe just maybe somebody will come this journey and I will love him with more intensity the way I loved you.

Every word from this song says about what I am going through right now, it seems it was written for me.  

I would always wake up  thinking about you.  A question that constantly pops on my mind is that how will you spend the day? Will you be busy as I wish I will be to stop my mind thinking of you? That I have survived another night.  I pray for you every night, I am not with you physically but every bit of me thinks of you.  I have dreamt of you a lot of times and I would woke up always smiling because I want that to happen every night.  In my dreams every thing impossible may happen but they will never come true.  My soul shouts your name, its still you and  just by hearing your name makes me go back to the best months of my life.  Those were the months we shared stories, laughter, dreams...everything...

I still can't find myself after losing you.  I thought giving you up was the right thing to do because when I was with you I lost myself, yeah I lost myself in the process of loving you.  It was not right, It was against my principles and to find myself I gave you up not knowing that losing you is not the proper thing to do because until now I wake up not knowing when and how I will be able to get over you.

It is still an everyday battle.  Your memories still haunt me.  I can still remember every word you said.  I still long to hear your voice and laughter and giggles.  Its been more than a year but the pain is still the same since the first day.  

I wonder when the longing will stop.. Will I be numb to the pain? Will I just get used to it?  Will I ever move on?  

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UNTIL I GET OVER YOU

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name

[Chorus]
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you

[Verse 2]
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

[Bridge]
When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go