it doesn't feel right :c

You are one of the few persons who really understand me, it doesn't feel right that you are not here.  Well I am back to my old self.  I miss you dearly, if i am this down you are one of the few people I know I can count on.  You tell me what is wrong with me, that i am not on the right path.  I miss that dear.  How can I make you come back? Life will never be the same without you.  There will always be a space that it seems no one can fill in.  I can't figure out why I am this way.  I can't explain it.  Can't find a term that will fit the emotion inside me.  I was just ecstatic last night.  But this day is like a doom day.  I wanna tell you what  is happening because you are the type that will tell what I need to know or hear and not what i want to know.  I want out of this feeling because it is so depressing.  I need you to come back and stay..