my new life :)

When I woke up this morning, without intending to, I realized that its not you i have been thinking of..  For the past nine months, I have been thinking of you before I sleep and you are the first thought when I wake up.. I smiled today because it is a sign that I have accepted the fact that the road should lead me forward and not backward.  I smiled because someone is making me smile now.. I have loved you genuinely.  No pretensions.  But now, I will be starting a new life, meet new people.. I have lots of beautiful memories with you but I look forward to  the future.  All I can say is thank you. No anger, no nothing.  I intend to see you again soon.  Maybe tomorrow, the next day, next month or next year. 

it doesn't feel right :c

You are one of the few persons who really understand me, it doesn't feel right that you are not here.  Well I am back to my old self.  I miss you dearly, if i am this down you are one of the few people I know I can count on.  You tell me what is wrong with me, that i am not on the right path.  I miss that dear.  How can I make you come back? Life will never be the same without you.  There will always be a space that it seems no one can fill in.  I can't figure out why I am this way.  I can't explain it.  Can't find a term that will fit the emotion inside me.  I was just ecstatic last night.  But this day is like a doom day.  I wanna tell you what  is happening because you are the type that will tell what I need to know or hear and not what i want to know.  I want out of this feeling because it is so depressing.  I need you to come back and stay..

LOVE LOVE LOVE

LOVE IS ….

Defining what love is

Is too difficult

For love can have different meanings

A funny definition is

Love is a word that starts with L

And ends with the letter E

Stupid definition actually

Thanks to my philosophy teacher

LOVE is full of joy

That makes us smile

As well as pain

That brings tears to our eyes.

LOVE is sacrifice

That is why when the person we love

Wants to leave us

We set him free

No matter how painful it would be

LOVE has it rewards and costs

But we should never keep track

Of what we gain

And what we have lost

For LOVE never counts

LOVE makes us cry

It could be tears of joy

Or because of too much pain

LOVE is never selfish

Even if it hurts so much

Or happiness is at stake

It is willing to give way

LOVE is always patient

It is willing to wait

Even if it takes forever

LOVE is full of surprises

You’ll never know what comes next

LOVE teaches us to be strong

We smile even if we can’t stand the pain

LOVE gives colors to our lives

Black and blue when broken

Red when full of love

White if pure

LOVE completes an empty space,

A void in our heart

LOVE is easy to feel

But cannot be explained by words alone

Love is to easy to get

Willing but never easy to let go

LOVE is forgiving

No matter how big the mistake is

But remember LOVE never forgets

Sometimes we can’t help but ask

Why does the person we love

Does not love us in return

Or worse is in love with someone else

Ouch…..

More often than not

The person we love

Do nothing but hurt us

From this we can draw

LOvE is not fair

It never was

For lOVE does not give a happy ending

For it does not have to end at all

But LOVE, TRUE LOVE

Is UNCONDITIONAL

IT never asks for any reason

You LOVE not because of

But in spite of

That is what I Learned

From loving the person

Who is everything to me

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Missin' everything about you..

I am missin' you so much.  (But it does not mean I am sad ^_^) I saw your pictures, out of the country with your pals. I don't know. I must admit I still hope that someday somehow we will meet again even if being the best pals is all we will be. It is my genuine love for you that keeps me going.  I am praying for you every night before I go to sleep. I miss you.  I want to see and hug you.  I miss your laughs, stories, you bullying me, I miss sharin' my days with you.  I miss the long talks over the phone.  I miss the time you will get mad.  I miss everything about you. 

If you feel good about yourself, everything follows

"If you feel good about yourself, everything follows".  Enough of the pessimism. Its like its over and done. I need to move forward. Life is too short to be wasted. Life is beautiful.. It seems that I am beginning to see the beauty of the colors of the rainbow.  I have a wonderful circle of friends, very appreciative students, the kindest parents, a challenging job that makes me stay out of my comfort zone..  What more could I ask for? I know what is missing ^_^

Too strong

Too Strong

I’m too strong, even if you broke my heart

I still gave you a second chance

I’m too strong even if I don’t deserve the way you treat me

I am still in love and probably will be for a long time.

I’m too strong yet it hurts so much

I’m still here waiting for you to realize it is I who you really love

I’m too strong even if you hurt me more than I deserve

I still stand by you like a fool

I’m too strong I am still standing next to you

Even if you have caused me too much pain

I’m too strong even if I always shed tears for you

I still want to hold your hand and hug you tight

I’m too strong I can still manage to flash a smile

Though my heart is bleeding mad

I’m too strong the set up with you is fine with me

Even if my friends call it stupidity

I’m too strong I have not given up

Though I know I should have long time ago

I’m too strong even if I know you are lying

I still accept it without showing you any doubt

I’m too strong I say I’m okay

Even if giving up is next in line

I’m too strong even if my heart is tired

It is still hoping, still longing for your attention

I’m too strong I try to understand

Even without any explanation from you

I’m too strong I can still be happy

Even if it hurts like hell

I’m too strong yet I am in pain

I still love you, I really do.’.

meet halfway ^_^

I feel so nervous at the same time happy.. It is overwhelming at the same time challenging.  I don't know how will I go back to things I used to do.. Things I never intended to go back to in the first place but I must because of the decision I made ^_^

fun fun fun

Teaching is very rewarding.  It brings back my college days. This is actually the primary reason why I can't let go of it plus the fact the I learn huge amount of new information.  I am saddened that i may not teach this semester.  I am trying not to think about.  Teaching is also a way to update myself of the all the things happening in the world, it brought me back to my senses, my interest to read, to research, to encounter new words, to check the correct pronunciation of a particular word.... everything... to laugh with the bagets..I love my students.. A particular phase of my life i really enjoyed because its rewarding.  It feels good to learn new from books or the internet but it is more rewarding that at the end of the day I tried my best to inculcate those to my students.  I am not a perfect teacher, i have lots of misses if I may say.  The subject is really really hard but now I can say that given an opportunity to teach that again, I will.. In short nagamay ko din ang subject.  I enjoyed the whole experience .  The sermon, the frustrations, the laughter, making exams, getting the reaction from the kids after announcing that I will have a quiz right after the discussion ^_^ Funny moments, making love teams (whether they like or not) asking if sino bf gf :) I only have two weeks and i'll make sure that it will be fun fun fun :)

ineedyouback

It has been seven months but the pain is still the same as the first day I decided to not include you with my everyday life. A decision that still haunts me the morning I wake up, the night I sleep and every time I have lull moments. It was a decision I made out of insecurity. Yes, it's purely because of insecurities. The ifs in life, damn!! Isowantyouback but I know i do not have a space because the small space i used to had before is already replaced by somebody else. Now, I say that if I have the power to turn back the hands of time, surely it will be the time I have you and I will do everything just to have you again. Every night I wonder what life if it is with you. If I still have you.. I want you back, i need you back.. Please come back..

PURPLEME

I was scanning twitter updates when i saw the word purple and suddenly the urge to make a blog account pop into my mind or maybe  i just really need an outlet.  I had an account but i have tried many times to open it and the passwords i am trying to make the account active just didn't work out. Anyway i am so excited so am gonna start.

I am in a state where i don't which to choose, to teach or to continue with office.  I am weighing the pros and cons of my decisions. I want the best.  I love both so its really hard to choose.  Maybe the reason why im so irritated the past days is because of this. I still don't know..SIGH..