If you feel good about yourself, everything follows

"If you feel good about yourself, everything follows".  Enough of the pessimism. Its like its over and done. I need to move forward. Life is too short to be wasted. Life is beautiful.. It seems that I am beginning to see the beauty of the colors of the rainbow.  I have a wonderful circle of friends, very appreciative students, the kindest parents, a challenging job that makes me stay out of my comfort zone..  What more could I ask for? I know what is missing ^_^

Too strong

Too Strong

I’m too strong, even if you broke my heart

I still gave you a second chance

I’m too strong even if I don’t deserve the way you treat me

I am still in love and probably will be for a long time.

I’m too strong yet it hurts so much

I’m still here waiting for you to realize it is I who you really love

I’m too strong even if you hurt me more than I deserve

I still stand by you like a fool

I’m too strong I am still standing next to you

Even if you have caused me too much pain

I’m too strong even if I always shed tears for you

I still want to hold your hand and hug you tight

I’m too strong I can still manage to flash a smile

Though my heart is bleeding mad

I’m too strong the set up with you is fine with me

Even if my friends call it stupidity

I’m too strong I have not given up

Though I know I should have long time ago

I’m too strong even if I know you are lying

I still accept it without showing you any doubt

I’m too strong I say I’m okay

Even if giving up is next in line

I’m too strong even if my heart is tired

It is still hoping, still longing for your attention

I’m too strong I try to understand

Even without any explanation from you

I’m too strong I can still be happy

Even if it hurts like hell

I’m too strong yet I am in pain

I still love you, I really do.’.

meet halfway ^_^

I feel so nervous at the same time happy.. It is overwhelming at the same time challenging.  I don't know how will I go back to things I used to do.. Things I never intended to go back to in the first place but I must because of the decision I made ^_^

fun fun fun

Teaching is very rewarding.  It brings back my college days. This is actually the primary reason why I can't let go of it plus the fact the I learn huge amount of new information.  I am saddened that i may not teach this semester.  I am trying not to think about.  Teaching is also a way to update myself of the all the things happening in the world, it brought me back to my senses, my interest to read, to research, to encounter new words, to check the correct pronunciation of a particular word.... everything... to laugh with the bagets..I love my students.. A particular phase of my life i really enjoyed because its rewarding.  It feels good to learn new from books or the internet but it is more rewarding that at the end of the day I tried my best to inculcate those to my students.  I am not a perfect teacher, i have lots of misses if I may say.  The subject is really really hard but now I can say that given an opportunity to teach that again, I will.. In short nagamay ko din ang subject.  I enjoyed the whole experience .  The sermon, the frustrations, the laughter, making exams, getting the reaction from the kids after announcing that I will have a quiz right after the discussion ^_^ Funny moments, making love teams (whether they like or not) asking if sino bf gf :) I only have two weeks and i'll make sure that it will be fun fun fun :)

ineedyouback

It has been seven months but the pain is still the same as the first day I decided to not include you with my everyday life. A decision that still haunts me the morning I wake up, the night I sleep and every time I have lull moments. It was a decision I made out of insecurity. Yes, it's purely because of insecurities. The ifs in life, damn!! Isowantyouback but I know i do not have a space because the small space i used to had before is already replaced by somebody else. Now, I say that if I have the power to turn back the hands of time, surely it will be the time I have you and I will do everything just to have you again. Every night I wonder what life if it is with you. If I still have you.. I want you back, i need you back.. Please come back..

PURPLEME

I was scanning twitter updates when i saw the word purple and suddenly the urge to make a blog account pop into my mind or maybe  i just really need an outlet.  I had an account but i have tried many times to open it and the passwords i am trying to make the account active just didn't work out. Anyway i am so excited so am gonna start.

I am in a state where i don't which to choose, to teach or to continue with office.  I am weighing the pros and cons of my decisions. I want the best.  I love both so its really hard to choose.  Maybe the reason why im so irritated the past days is because of this. I still don't know..SIGH..